New Preface for Inside My Scars

As a young girl I never looked into the future waiting for my fairy tale to begin. Not once have my dreams ever contained a prince to rescue me like I was a damsel in distress. Instead, I've always felt as though I could have been Snow White after eating the poisonous apple. Without the magical kiss being placed upon my lips to wake me from my nightmares, the evil witch I fear will be coming soon to rip out my heart. 

My dreams became nightmares where I would fight, search, and in the end wake up screaming in pure terror of my past. Prince Charming would never dare enter into my dreams or he too would be caught in the endless cycle of torture. A glass coffin will forever contain me allowing no skin to ever touch mine again.

There would never be a magical kiss placed against my lips to resurrect the innocence I once owned. Dreams of purity escaped my mind and ran screaming from my clutches. What seemed like a million years ago, perhaps I had the delusions of such things, but just as my mother they all died on the same day.

After Lilith was born, she opened my eyes to true happiness. The brilliant blue shining through hers almost killed every bit of the pain behind mine. Her heart made mine stronger with each beat it took. I lived each day in my skin, in my own hell, but when she came I knew she brought a piece of heaven with her. 

My skin will forever be riddled with the scars of my past. Although I try so hard to hide them every day, the world will always see the pain of years gone by. Afraid to look into the mirror with my past staring straight back at me, I found facing the future to be much harder. With the realization I could never go back and take away the wickedness placed on my skin, I face uncertainty as her fate approached us faster with each minute passing. Especially now as she smiles each time I look into her eyes.